Friday, February 4, 2011

Six word Friday- Sum it Up

Sad, angry, rejected, hopeful, faithful, open,
these sum up my changing feelings
over the closing of a door.
A big life changing shift here
that is both devastating and enlightening.
I see gifts in hard growth,
but challenges run strong these days.
I have faith in the way
things will turn out for me,
a newly single mama of boys.
It was not my choice, but
I am finding room to accept.
Things could change for him, me,
but I am taking one step forward,
one day at a time, yes.
This is hard, but I'm ok.
Most of the time, I'm ok.

Where to go? What to do?
I'm wide open, scary and exciting!
I had been asking in prayer,
to live to my highest potential,
and I let myself be guided.
Fingers crossed, heart open, for AFRICA, 
and then? who knows. wide open.
Options include staying in the mountains,
or moving back to midwest, family.
A year in Maui could happen. 

Trust, faith, and openness guide me.
Feelings come and go, thank goodness. 
It's so helpful to remember often
that nothing is permanent, nothing is.
Doors close, doors open, opportunities arise
out of the hot burning fire. 
Sadness and hope, hand in hand. 
 I feel touched by the Divine. 

Thank you for your kind words. 
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ayala said...

I wish you wisdom through these difficult times. I wish that you grow and that your spirit soars.

Molly @ Postcards from a Peaceful Divorce said...

Well, Tessa, it seems that your journey is running a bit parallel to mine. I will tell you that it does get better and that there is a lot of growth and joy to be had. I found that my sense of self expanded in ways that I could never have imagined. Feel free to contact me anytime. You have my support. xo

2bdancing said...

i'd choose a year in Maui, but that might just be me :)
good luck.
it will all work out for the best-you're right.

melissa said...

Wishing you love and peace as you contemplate the future, dear one. Praying for you too, for direction and peace.

Tessa said...

Dear ladies,
Thank you so much for your kind words of encouragement and support. These days my days are so full of emotion and everyday life as a full time teacher and mother to my own, that I barely have time to even post. It's therapeutic to me to write, and such a bonus to have people connect with and support me. I'm sorry I don't always return the favor on your blogs. I appreciate you.

kate said...

big hugs and peace to you. so many possibilities are out there.

Heidi said...

My fingers are crossed for you to go to Africa. I wish you could come and chat with my friends, 3 of my mama friends out here have been to Africa, sometimes I feel like the only person who hasn't.
I know you will make it somday, but I am hoping sooner than later because I think it might just be what your heavy heart needs right now.
I have pictures of your family still on my fridge from many years ago, I am thinking of you all the time.
Much love,

Elizabeth @claritychaos said...

This is really beautiful. Your openness to change and challenge is really apparent here, and it was really powerful to read such a heartfelt piece. Best of luck to you, and peace in your decision-making.

melgallant said...

"I see gifts in hard growth" - a great perspective to have during what is obviously a difficult time. Cheering you on as you explore new opportunities in the face of change.