Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Virtual Coffee


At this time in my life, I am leaving much behind me. I suppose at any point in our lives, we can see it that way. So much in the past, many promising things to come. There are those times, however, that are very significant. 2011 started off with my husband moving out of our house. whoa. Two weeks later my grandmother died. My kids have been sick and my emotions can be likened to the dark of night and the bright light of the sun. Some days I feel so good and I trust that this hard transition is going to take me places, that I will indeed fulfill the potential that I hold. Other days I am a mess. I believe this is natural.
It's definitely a process.

As hard as it is to go through tough times, I think God chooses us to. It can be seen as a privilege. We are being invited to walk through our own limitations and come out of it with more faith, more light, more compassion and understanding. God uses our trials and tribulations to make us more enlightened people, I believe that. It's not about "Satan" or punishment, it's about refinement. If we can walk through the painfulness with equanimity and love, then we are spiritually growing. If we stay in our comfortable bubble all of our lives, how will we know what we're really made of? Living up to our highest potential always involves some scary, unsure, growing times. Anyway, that has just been on my mind.

So, through this refinement I am experiencing, I have faith. Things are so hard and I feel so hurt many days, but I still trust. I'm confused as heck, but I trust that the confusion will lift. I have so many options and of course I'm looking at what's best for the boys as the first thing. It's tricky believing that I can really manifest whatever it is that I want, but knowing that it will take jumping hurdles along the way. I got my jumping shoes on.

9 comments:

Stephanie {Luxe Boulevard} said...

Girl, you hit the nail on the head! People always say that Satan is attacking them. Satan doesn't attack people, he feeds on what's been brought about--brought about by God himself, not as punishment, as you said, or because he is cruel and unjust, but to teach us to have faith and draw closer to Him--because Satan wants to lure us away from God.
I will pray for all you have going on. You're not the only one with marital woes. I sure have my share. It's hard. It takes incredible work. There are days when I don't feel I'm strong enough to handle the work it requires. But a friend always tells me that God never gives us more than can handle, because we're supposed to ask Him to handle it for us, and trust that He will.

Stephanie
www.luxeboulevard.blogspot.com

Corinne said...

I'm in awe of your faith, such a blessing.

Gina said...

What a road you are on; praying that on your journey you would be able to see God refining you more and more, be able sense him in new ways and hear him louder than ever. Praying also for peace and wisdom as you walk this road.

I noticed Stephanie's comment, I totally agree that Satan wants to lure us away from God. But we always need to remember that he is an attacker too. His one goal is to steal, kill, and destroy. He does this by attacking. He's compared to a roaring lion, seeking people to devour. His motive is to pull us away from God, any way he can. I think one of his greatest lies is convincing Christ followers that he doesn't attack. That he's not a threat. But he is. Not to imply that is what your situation is, that's not my point. But my point is that we need to be on our guard against his schemes-however they come.

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Tessa said...

Thank you for your support and thoughts.

I definitely acknowledge that there is much evil in the world. I just choose to see people's evil as their own deep rooted wounds that have not been nurtured or dealt with, so it comes out on others. There is darkness in the world and we all experience it. I believe, though, that it's necessary to experience some darkness so we can see where the light is. We sometimes need to LEARN to have faith. Also, what better way to teach us compassion? Mean people are hurt people and need love and compassion more than anyone.

Our trials are often our biggest teachers, and often times good comes out of them in the end.

Temptation teaches us to use our discipline.
Anger teaches us to use compassion and patience.
Heart break teaches us to love ourselves and let go.

All in perfect timing. God is good.

Jade @ Tasting Grace said...

What a beautiful, beautiful post. This one is one to remember. I'm so very sorry you're going through such a trial of a time, but your take on it is truly inspiring. I hope you find your way through and are able to look back on it as the time in which you discovered the vastness of your own strength.

Kelly S. said...

I love you and will send prayers and positive thoughts for you Tessa! You are an amazing woman, a blessing and an angel!

Kelly said...

What a great post! You're so wise, Tessa. :)

Jade @ Tasting Grace said...

Didn't see you at Virtual Coffee this week, but I just wanted to pop by and leave a note because I read a book this weekend that made me think of you. It's called "Awakening to Your Life's Purpose" by Eckhart Tolle. The title is kind of lame, but I think the book is a nice little comforting cup of spirituality.

Anyway, I hope you're well.

Cheers,
Jade

Jade @ Tasting Grace said...

Didn't see you at Virtual Coffee this week, but I just wanted to pop by and leave a note because I read a book this weekend that made me think of you. It's called "A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life's Purpose" by Eckhart Tolle. The title is kind of lame, but I think the book is a nice little comforting cup of spirituality.

Anyway, I hope you're well.

Cheers,
Jade